Ashley, I have a 22 year old son whose 7 year heroin addiction has stolen both his life and mine, not to mention deeply affected his child I am raising. Heartbroken and afraid are only the tip of the iceberg emotions I have 24 hours a day. I live terrified that I am going to lose him and terrified his little son will follow in his path. I vascillate between responding tenderly and responding angrily to his selfish choices, but nothing I say or do, nothing he says or does removes the terror. I only pray he comes to the realization that he does have the capability to leave this behind him, but I know his self confidence and self concept are awful. All I know to do is attend Alanon and hope its a path he will recognize as better and want more for himself. Thank you for your story. I had to share mine with someone, too. Please see my other stories denoting situations surrounding the addiction.